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i did 14285 steps at work today.
bought a pedometer off ebay…the novelty hasn’t worn off yet.

in my whole women and competition theory i do have to clarify one thing. i have many wonderful female friends who i would never trade for anything in the world. they have gotten me through so much that i owe them more than i will ever be able to repay. i want to thank all of these beautiful, intelligent, kind and crazy women who have made my life better by being in it.

dinner last night went well, by the way. turns out i really can cook. bet you thought i was lying? my roommate called it a dinner party, even though there were only four of us. *smile* it was a nice sit-down affair *high-brow voice*, with you don’t know jack played before and the lawnmower man 2 watched after with full tummies and a warm atmosphere. i can safely say that if you never see lawnmower man 2 your life will be all the better for it. the guys weren’t keen on any of the movies i wanted to see, probably as i’m going through a horrible romantic movie phase.

i believe that i aced my preflight exam, which is definitely the hardest class i have. the prof. is also my advisor and also the one person i have learned most from in the whole department. she sets really high standards and if you don’t meet them, there are no excuses. i am very happy about this exam, so i hope it turns out i did well on it.

fall break is next week! a day to catch up on textbook reading. yay.
over break i’m hopefully going to go to lunch or dinner with a good friend (who i NEVER get to see anymore) and maybe some shopping? she’s the most awesome bargain shopper ever so i’m going to beg her to use her superpowers for good and help me clothes shop.

for those who don’t know, i work with developmentally disabled consumers. i’ve worked for the same company for over three and a half years now. my new roommate is one of these consumers. i can’t say much, due to confidentiality laws, but i want you all to know that it is going well and that i’m really excited about this.

took a long nap today and yet i’m still tired. was in bed by midnight last night which is the earliest i’ve gotten to sleep in AGES. tonight i’m aiming for 11pm, so again, wish me luck!

have to study for a very important test i have to take tomorrow.

grr. a little frustrated tonight, but nothing new, right? that is a story not to be told here.

going to make chicken caccitore tonight for supper. haven’t made that in years due to one thing or another, but one thing i can do is mix up a meal. don’t let me attempt to make brownies, though, because they never, ever turn out.

day 1 has been perfect with the new roommate. i think this is going to be a very acceptable arrangement, as long as my “posse” *laugh* can accept it. we’ll see if everyone can handle it.

having a few people over for supper, making chicken caccitore and if they don’t like it, wendy’s is open late. it’s good to have friends to just hang with. i have noticed a trend back to having more male friends than female. that was how it used to be before i got married as well. i may have to analyze this. i think it does relate back to a huge theory paper i did at UW back when i was concentrating on research: women will not be friends if there is any type of competition between them. it’s a bit more complicated than that, but i don’t want to bore you.

have to go cook. wish me much luck!

different subject: i think i may be learning patience. i just don’t know if i like it. i have always been a relatively aggressive person….i see something, i want it, i take it.

now that the house is free of dad and mart. but i ended up staying awake until 3am doing nothing constructive: blogged, watched two movies (mona lisa smile and heavenly creatures), looked over the sites i have to cover for marketing class –that part was kind of constructive– and then i fell asleep sideways on the bed with kaya on one side and domino on the other. when they got tired of me being weird, they nudged me endlessly until i straightened out and let them under the covers, where all puppies think they should be.

last night was rough. my roommate was great, it was just a lot of mental exhaustion (did i do well on my test, how am i going to pay the mortgage, why are the dogs barking endlessly, why do marketing books cost $130, is my brother ok, is my sister-in-law ok, is mom ok after the hurricane, am i going to die a lonely old spinster with 20 dogs?) that i had to sort through. i had a bit of a freakout and texted a friend on my cell late late late. he was up and called so we could chat, brilliant! thank goodness, otherwise i might have exploded. bits and pieces of me all over the room….very messy and none too aesthetically pleasing.

going to class now. yay. *smile*

what i did in theory class tonight. . .before the big, bad test 

who moved in today instead of thursday. it’s been a very long, tired day and i am exhausted both physically and mentally. i believe my theory test went well, but will not know for sure until next monday night.

i adore friends that ask me to go out. i adore even more friends who are on my time schedule. . .i.e. no one, practically. so, i guess it was nice knowing you all…..

xoxo
the vampire formerly known as me

i was caught between crying and smacking with a trout. i don’t know if this was a love story or a thesis on mental illness, but it made me feel good.

going to bed now….puppies, fish and me are sleepy.

there is now another room in our house, built especially for my new roommate-to-be. i have also repainted the bathroom (and remembered that not all whites match…so have to repaint a lot more before it looks right, grr), did a second coat of paint on the kitchen (only a year later), put up three smoke detectors, hung a fire extinguisher and almost completed the island and water cabinet in the kitchen [edit: also put up “privacy panels” in the bathroom windows, did laundry, cleaned out the room next to my bedroom, put locks on the office/bedroom doors, wrote a paper, finished one of the maple chairs, cried out of frustration and talked with my grandmother]. i only have mowing, more painting, taping and mudding the drywall, painting the new room, dishes, laundry, general deep spring cleaning, studying for two MAJOR tests, finish the maple set, clean the fish tank (ick), figure out how to come up with the mortgage (selling a dog or three comes to mind), painting the front hall and eventually i might get around to sleeping, eating and other necessities of life.

yes, i am whining. no, i will not apologize.

dad and mart are both gone for the week. jamme decided to take off to help his brother move (talk about priorities *grin*). april is redoing her own house. most of the other people i know are a) not interested b) too busy c) not interested d) all of the above. not that i blame them one whit.

so, i refuse to face reality and instead am going to watch punch-drunk love on the computer. nothing like watching a romantic movie alone to hit home the lack of romance in one’s own life, right?

blah to that. i will watch it. if it is sad i will cry, if it is happy i will smack it with a trout.

goodnight, john boy.

cute babies. . .took over my old comforter 

not so close. . .