you heard me. ack!
life is so very strange.
okay, past week had parents in town. YAY!
then saturday went to kansas city to do what i do best: wander around aimlessly with jamme and austin.
bought birthday present for Mart at his request. waved and was off. that is, after a great lunch with 6 great guys at ‘john’s big deck’.
came home.
half an hour later was out the door to go out on the town. no shower. yes, i smelled icky. jamme and austin will both back this up. was hijacked and had to go without proper preparation.
collided with bryan at the bar. he had (earlier this week) turned drinks this next tuesday into dinner. as in: he wants to take ME out for DINNER for HIS birthday. okay. bad. wrong. thought we were hanging out as friends. nonononono. when the hell did THIS happen? wtf do i do? how do i do this politely?
and breathe.
spent night playing phone/text tag with bryan(blah) and bryan(yay!). yes, two bryans. very confusing, you do not have to tell me. avoiding bryan(b) and trying to talk with bryan(y!) took up most of my night. as did an invitation to join a group activity in which i was not keen on. not keen at all. several other calls ensued which i deemed not necessary to answer.
i remember now why i do not go out during the school year. i have no patience for mindless gibbering. i would rather stay home and dance in the living room with april, alicia, jamme, austin and the puppies.
ah, speaking mindless gibberish. that is what i felt i was doing today. such a goof am i. i spent more than seven hours on the phone. me. i hate the phone. seven hours. and i felt like speaking for another seven hours. do not ask, i do not even know how to begin to explain. sometimes things happen for a reason, right? right?
goofy i know, but this is how i am feeling and this is the current soundtrack to my mind.
cake or death?
